Monday, April 18, 2011

Just for today...

Just for today, I'm giving myself permission to be just a little bit sad.

My best friend is going on a trip for a couple of months, and just for today I'm going to be a little sad about it.  Don't get me wrong, I know that this short trip is no big deal at all.  A few months is nothing at all compared to longer times people are apart, but it still kind of stinks. 

Normally, this short time wouldn't bother me, but after enjoying two weeks of lots of time spent together, I feel like the rug is being pulled out from under me--  like I went from an overflowing well of joy from having had almost constant company to a suddenly dried up well in the desert from having to immediately adjust to isolation.  Don't get me wrong. I have a few friends here, but being here on this island when my hubby is gone is much different from being back home with my family.  Back home, there is always someone around to talk to or hang out with.  Here, it's just different.  Friends are wonderful, but they just aren't the same.  Plus, I'm having a very hard time finding just the right match here.  The people I'm closest to here have their own families with kids, so that somewhat limits the time you can spend together-- no spontaneous late weeknight movies or dinners and slightly more difficult schedules to work around.  Other people I've met just haven't "clicked" in the come-over-whenever-and-we'll-have-a-blast-no-matter-what kind of way.  The few that I have really "clicked" with have moved away, leaving me feeling like I'm starting over at square one.  I'm not really complaining, just explaining why I'm taking the day to let myself feel a little sad.

Over the past two weeks, Kent and I have been on bike rides, some successful (and unsuccessful) sailing trips, days at the beach, snorkeling, dinner dates, movies, trips to the bookstore, and just enjoyed some nice time at home with "the boys." 

We took these photos on a drive around the island the other day.
Pretty beautiful, huh?

 After enjoying these beautiful sights with one of my favorite people, it's a little hard to think about being alone for the next few months... but I've done it before, and I'll do it again.  :)

I know some sweet people here on the island who make things better, and when I go home to what can sometimes feel like an empty, I'm never really alone.

I've got these guys...
And they are always there for a little hug or a snuggle on the couch.  Plus, they listen when I talk to them sometimes, and I just know that if they could, they would talk back.  Their eyes say it all, and I know a lot of times they understand what I tell them.  

I'm so thankful for them and that I live in a time when all I have to do is pick up a cell phone or log on to Skype to hear another voice and have conversation to not feel so alone.  It really is amazing.  That being said, I'm going to finish taking just today to feel a little sad... get the moping out of the way.  Then, I can start keeping myself busy since I have a lot to do.  Tomorrow I'm going to do a major cleaning in my house (since it's been a little neglected after all of our fun the past couple weeks).  Then I'll be starting on a project for the giveaway that you'll read about tomorrow, I have several other projects that I'm working on, as well, and in the past couple weeks I stocked up on books to read.  Hopefully, I'll be busy enough that time will fly by and I won't notice being alone so much. 


  1. Lindsay, I woke up this morning thinking about you, sweet friend, as I know these kind of days can really be difficult and oh, so lonely. Tucker has given me smiles, hugs, and lots of "hey, I'm here for ya...always" looks when John has been away so I definitely "get" the warm friendship, and connection that our fur babies share with us. I know Duke and Murphy will be giving you extra love during these next few months, and I'm so happy that we've become friends...I know we'll be sharing some stories, giggles, and such, and maybe some of it will add a little smile to your day and help you to know that you're not alone. :)

    Hugs, girlie!!


  2. Oh lame-o. I know the feeling of not having friends that "click" I'm having a hard time finding my niche with friends here. Everyone is either single or has like 3 kids under the age of 3....or snooty haha I had to say it! Hopefully you can find someone you click more with and that will help the time pass. Sending warm thoughts your way!

    PS your photos are stunning!
    PPS I think we would probably click :)

  3. Thank you Ann-Margaret and Cat! Thanks for your sweet words. :) I'm so glad that I started the whole blogging thing. Although I've found some people don't want to give you a chance because they are already in a click, the ones that do-- like you guys-- are super sweet, supportive, and encouraging, and it really means the world to me!

  4. Tails to Tell is now linked on my blog!!! Hopefully you'll get some new followers :)

  5. Thanks LB! I really appreciate that! :) If you have a button, I'll be happy to put it on my blog. I really like reading what you write!


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